So as many of you know...my life has been incredibly busy lately with everything that I am involved in. I won't go into details but this past weekend was a true testament to how busy I am with one of the biggest fundraisers for the All Night Grad party happening. Now even though I was not one of the key players (thankfully, I have committee chairs to do this)I was still running around doing different things.
Don't get me wrong...I enjoy every second of it but sometimes I tend to put off the important things...like calling a dear friend when I said I would!
Yes, that dear friend is Chris. I kept telling myself that I would call her and I kept putting it off. Not on purpose....other things just got in the way.
After being offline for a couple of days, I get back on to find out that she has taken a turn for the worst. Talk about feeling really bad!! I told her I would call her to let her know how the fundraiser turned out. She was really interested and really cared....and I screwed up! Not that it would have changed anything but at least I would have heard her voice one last time...had one more good conversation with her...and heard her laugh one more time. Now, all I have is memories of her voice, our past conversations, and her infectious laugh!
Chris is being kept sedated and comfortable right now...that's about all they can do for her anymore.
As I called her house today...not really knowing what to say...I could hear her laughing at me telling me to stop being silly. I honestly didn't know if I wanted someone to answer (well, of course I wanted Chris to answer and this to be a horrible nightmare but that didn't happen) or it to go to voicemail....but what would I say if it did go to vm?
Luckly, her husband answered. He is such an awesome man! A pillar of strength...her rock.
We talked for a little while...we laughed and of course we cried! I tried so hard to stay strong (if you know me, you know that I cry easily) but when G started to cry...I of course lost it! They have such a strong, loving bond to one another and you could hear the pain in his voice.
As I hung up the phone, I had a pain in my heart knowing that not only will G lose his best friend and his life companion but also that I should have called earlier.
Next time....I will stop what I'm doing and do what is most important in life! You just never know....
Chris....I love you now and forever. You will always have a special place in my heart!
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